I just got a call from him to say that he just finished up at the courthouse and it is done. I am a divorced woman. Single.I am at work and have so much to do, but I closed the door and had myself a good cry. I don't know why I am crying like this. Maybe I am just relieving myself from residual pain that was rattling around in my soul. I can never understand where these emotions come from.He was telling me about his new house, mortgages, and working overtime. He didn't seem to feel anything. No sadness, no remorse, nothing. Of course, he never like to talk about his feelings. I guess I expected him to say something nice, profound or meaningful. I only spent 12 years of my life with him and gave him everything that was humanly possible. My heart, my soul and my whole future. I gave up who I was to make him happy. Guess it wasn't good enough. He just walked away from all that. Well... good luck my ex-second husband. I hope you will find whatever the hell it is you are looking for! I am not yours any more. I will not love you, or give any part of myself to you any more. I won't be there to pick up the pieces if you fall apart and won't feel exuberant if you have successes. I won't be there to make you feel good in any way and will never again care what you think about my decisions in life. I will not be tender and soft with you and will never again feel passion for you.  All of this will be given to someone who deserves my love. Are you listening, Ray?