This site was the first entry when I googled "separation support groups" I need some help. Right after he left me, there was an outpouring of support and invitations from my friends at work and my sister, but now I feel so alone and am afraid I will fall into the deep hole of depression. I have no children or family close by. My mother and father have both passed away and there is no one who really cares about me at all. The people at work that I am friends with are not close friends and it seems at times they only feel sorry for me. I am hoping to join a few groups and clubs and find some people I can really feel comfortable and relaxed with.I am feeling ugly. No one tells me I am attractive any more so I have to assume I am very ugly. I am fat and try to loose weight all the time. I'll loose some, but either it stops working or I give up. I try to exercise as much as possible but I am about 200 pounds so it's no easy. People give their suggestions on how I should get more exercise in my life, but they don't know how hard it is for me just to walk up a few flights of stairs. I feel like such a looser.  Like no woman who is over fifty and as fat as I am, is worthy of love. They always make fun of fat women on TV right and left like we have no feelings or right to think of ourselves as beautiful. I don't understand why my husband left. He wouldn't go to counseling and said he doesn't know why he doesn't love me any more. He wanted to date me, but after one date he is very cold to me, so I haven't been in contact with him at all. I am lonely and mourning his loss. There are things that I am doing to keep busy like getting rid of clutter at home and my photography and music, but these are solitary pursuits and I need to connect with people once in a while.