I can no longer journal about my mother's Alzheimer's. I am afraid. She has became violent and paranoid not necessarily towards me, but my father. My father has become a complete stranger. I can say nothing more because it will only get worse. And I can only die once. I do not want my journals to seem written out of self-pity. Alzheimer's is taking over every waking thought. There has to be something else for me to think about.