my psychiatrist   keeps saying there is nothing wroth dying over.  Yes there is the thought of being placed in a nursing home for the rest of my life really is something worth dying over.  I have been in one before there is no freedom what so ever.  There is nothing to keep my mind alert there.  I don't want to sleep all day.  I don't want to be druged up.  I want to keep my independence.  I'm afraid of being trapped somewhere people will think I no longer exists