General Update
General Update
I just thought I would give everyone a general update on how I am doing these days. I have been really busy starting a new chapter with my life since my granddaddy passed away. I have come a very long way since he passed away 9 months ago. I have been dealing with this process as best I can and also healing from this tragic experience that has happened. I have the best support system with my family and all of my friends. I think about him everyday and I love sitting outside and thinking about all the memories we had together. God truly broke the mold when my granddaddy was born he was such an amazing man. He sure made me the happiest granddaughter alive for 20 years. I was my granddaddy's baby and I always will be. When he passed away last July I felt like I couldn't breath anymore I also felt like I was being punished because he was taken away from me and I didn't understand why he had to go. I realized about 3 months ago that he wasn't taken from me and I wasn't being punished. I realized that God needed him up there way more than I needed him down here. I started to understand that my granddaddy didn't leave me to hurt me he left me so he could protect me and be my guardian angel and watch over me forever. I am so very grateful that I had 20 years to have him as my granddaddy and my very best friend. He taught me how to garden and to fish and hunt he taught me that you always forgive people no matter how many mistakes they make. He always had a way of making everything better. I realize now he is in a much better place no more pain no more suffering and I have a permanent guardian angel watching over me.
Life 9 months later
Here we are 9 months later after my granddaddy passed away and life is truly amazing right now. I have the greatest and most supportive family that anyone could ever want or ask for. I have the best fiance that has supported me and been here for me through everything and I couldn't ask for anyone better than him. My sister's and I are more close now that we ever have been. I am now a proud home owner of a beautiful home and yard. I have a beautiful 2 year old son and I wouldn't trade being his mom for anything in this world. My real mom and I talk every now and then and we have made a friendship out of years and years of fighting and not talking. I have not spoken to my real dad since around Christmas. I have rebuilt friendships and relationships with people that I couldn't really stand before. I learnt when my granddaddy passed away that life is way to short to stay angry and mad for mistakes that people made many years ago life is just way to short. Life has been truly great and the healing process that I have went through has helped me more than anyone understands or will ever know. I was mad and angry and depressed and for awhile I hated everything and I have come a very long way in 9 months. I am happy again and I still grieve I have my days where I am still mad and angry and upset but I look up at the sky and I know that he's watching over me and he always wanted me to be happy. For my birthday Chad bought me a heart locket with a huge silver heart and a baby cold heart inside the silver hear and he put a picture of my granddaddy's face inside and that was the most beautiful gift I had ever received from anyone. Every time I miss him or I am sad I look in my locket and there is his handsome face smiling at me and that means more to me that a thousand words. I had a traumatic experience happen to me 9 months ago and I have learned so much from it and I thank god everyday that he took my granddaddy with him and now there is no more pain and no more suffering. I am doing really great and I am happy with life these days. I thought everyone should know how I was doing. God bless you all and I love you all very much!!
I just thought I would give everyone a general update on how I am doing these days. I have been really busy starting a new chapter with my life since my granddaddy passed away. I have come a very long way since he passed away 9 months ago. I have been dealing with this process as best I can and also healing from this tragic experience that has happened. I have the best support system with my family and all of my friends. I think about him everyday and I love sitting outside and thinking about all the memories we had together. God truly broke the mold when my granddaddy was born he was such an amazing man. He sure made me the happiest granddaughter alive for 20 years. I was my granddaddy's baby and I always will be. When he passed away last July I felt like I couldn't breath anymore I also felt like I was being punished because he was taken away from me and I didn't understand why he had to go. I realized about 3 months ago that he wasn't taken from me and I wasn't being punished. I realized that God needed him up there way more than I needed him down here. I started to understand that my granddaddy didn't leave me to hurt me he left me so he could protect me and be my guardian angel and watch over me forever. I am so very grateful that I had 20 years to have him as my granddaddy and my very best friend. He taught me how to garden and to fish and hunt he taught me that you always forgive people no matter how many mistakes they make. He always had a way of making everything better. I realize now he is in a much better place no more pain no more suffering and I have a permanent guardian angel watching over me.
Life 9 months later
Here we are 9 months later after my granddaddy passed away and life is truly amazing right now. I have the greatest and most supportive family that anyone could ever want or ask for. I have the best fiance that has supported me and been here for me through everything and I couldn't ask for anyone better than him. My sister's and I are more close now that we ever have been. I am now a proud home owner of a beautiful home and yard. I have a beautiful 2 year old son and I wouldn't trade being his mom for anything in this world. My real mom and I talk every now and then and we have made a friendship out of years and years of fighting and not talking. I have not spoken to my real dad since around Christmas. I have rebuilt friendships and relationships with people that I couldn't really stand before. I learnt when my granddaddy passed away that life is way to short to stay angry and mad for mistakes that people made many years ago life is just way to short. Life has been truly great and the healing process that I have went through has helped me more than anyone understands or will ever know. I was mad and angry and depressed and for awhile I hated everything and I have come a very long way in 9 months. I am happy again and I still grieve I have my days where I am still mad and angry and upset but I look up at the sky and I know that he's watching over me and he always wanted me to be happy. For my birthday Chad bought me a heart locket with a huge silver heart and a baby cold heart inside the silver hear and he put a picture of my granddaddy's face inside and that was the most beautiful gift I had ever received from anyone. Every time I miss him or I am sad I look in my locket and there is his handsome face smiling at me and that means more to me that a thousand words. I had a traumatic experience happen to me 9 months ago and I have learned so much from it and I thank god everyday that he took my granddaddy with him and now there is no more pain and no more suffering. I am doing really great and I am happy with life these days. I thought everyone should know how I was doing. God bless you all and I love you all very much!!
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Hi niece Heather. :) this is a very heart warming, and special journal. :) You\'re an amazing person, a wonderful mom, a lovely friend, and such a beautiful heart, spirit, and soul you have. :) We are very blessed, and thankful to have you in our lives. :) that is a very special loving tribute, for your granddaddy. :) he will always be with you, and protecting you. :) he\'s a guardian angel in your life, always, forever :) it\'s very special, and precious, the time you all spent together, and how he taught you many things, life values, life lessons, and many peaceful joys, that you always carry with you, in your heart, spirit, and soul. :) it\'s so nice, and special, the wonderful gift Chad gave you. :) The locket, with a picture of your granddaddy. :) i am so happy, and thankful you are ok, and doing much better these days, with your wonderful family, friends, and special times you all spend together. :) it\'s wonderful that you and your mom are spending time together, and you take very good care of Brodie. :) You and Chad, share a special love, and it\'s very heart warming, that you have your very own home, and yard, with your beautiful garden. :)
You\'re a very strong person, and i admire your wonderful strength, spirit, and determination, to always enjoy the wonderful simple joys in life, and to make a wonderful positive impact on the lives of everyone, who is blessed to have you in their lives. :) You have made a wonderfully positive impact on my life. :) i\'m very blessed, and very proud, to call you my niece. :) You\'re a special part of our hearts, and our family. :) Wishing you, and your family many continued peaceful joys, and hoping you all have a wonderfully happy Easter holiday together. :) i love you niece Heather :) my family and i send our love, many peaceful blessings, and happy friendship hugs, from our home to yours :)