You.
You're the only thing that keeps me up...when I'm feeling down. I've looked, and I've searched & it's something so hard to find. I'm just addicted to how we used to kick it, and everything you said to me I never knew it would turn so wicked...all the hurtful things you said to me, but I still cannot wait to see you, I wanna see if you still got that look in your eyes like the one you had for me, and it's like I'm looking at a mirror before we crashed, and burned. It's just a shame that we got knocked down, and how you would get mad at me for everything. I can't go on not loving you. Because it's all in my head...I think about it over, and over again. I remember exactly the day you left. I remember the last breathe you took right in front of me. When you said that you were leaving. I was to damn stubborn to try, and stop you or say anything. I'm starting to see clearly now, and that choice I made keeps replaying in my head. I'm going down, from all this pain you put me through. I cannot go on not loving you. I think the worst part about the whole thing is I cannot keep picturing you with him...that HURTS so damn bad. Everytime I close my eyes I have to lock it down from all this pain I can't take it, and I can't shake it...no... :'(
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Oh, Adam. Must ask: How long has she been gone?
On the 16th of this month it will be 5 years. Pretty sad / pathetic.
it isn\'t pathetic. she obviously played a very big part in your life. just keep your head up and keep moving forward. you\'ll make it through.
Dearest Adam: May I ask, what purpose is served by your grieving over your lost love? It may very well be, as you had written pathetic and sad, but as a female, my view is that you are one terrific guy, and there are gals who would love a chance with a guy like you.