I can't keep my feet up off the edge I kinda like the lil rush I get when you're standing close to death. Hold on while I crash into the earth a little pain will help me suffer when I'm hurt... All along we talked about forever I always knew it would never get better. I stagger home after midnight, I fall apart on the weekends & these nights go on & on & on. I can't keep your voice out of my head all I hear are the memories of the darkest words you said & it's driving me crazy! I can't find the best in all of this, but I am always lookin' out for you because you're the one I miss. I bite my lip because your words are a robbery & I know you grin inside... it's killing me.  I know this is the longest start, but I hope the end isn't to far away, because I'm not sure how much more I can take. I can't find my smile again cannot even enjoy my life. I don't need an apology I don't need anyone to comfort me. I've made the same mistakes over & over again I'm just not learning, and I put my heart where it doesn't belong. I'll sit here by the fire with my phone waiting for a miracle to happen. Tonight could be my fate. The sky could be falling, and no one will come to where I am. Why didn't you stay? I can't forgive myself so this is my flag...I am surrendering. Must be out of my own mind some say I'm straight out of line. Well open me up, this isn't what you'd imagine it to be. With my eyes to the sky I'm feeling lost. Who am I living for? What am I living for? and what do I owe this perfect occasion? Ya I'm straight out of my mind,  Someone just show me some life. I've been here sleeping trying to open my eyse because all of this time I've been wasted. Missing the daylight...Only alive in the nighttime. How much longer should I wait? She kills me nightly on my way home I sing the saddest songs of all. I'm all alone & nothing is what it seems without you it's all my fault. I'll wait here until that moment I turn around & you'll be coming back to me even if it's only in my dreams an unforgiving reality...
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