Week 3

Starting tomorrow I will not have smoked weed in 3 weeks. That is so long for me, I never go that far without blazing. I feel really antsy and I have been having these terrible dreams, wicked fucked up dreams. I am scared to go to sleep because I know I will have another nightmare, I need to just relax and know everything will be ok because it will besides they are only dreams right? they can't hurt me physically but then whats with dreams anyway? what are they suppost to tell us? Well if they are trying to tell me something I need to urgently get the message, I have work tomorrow early in the morning and I'm not looking forward to going, last time these people were treating me like shit, I am just going to bring my homework and try to get it all done tomorrow before I stress the hell out about it. Anywayzzz the weekend went alright, I scored twice in my football game and I had the most yards I've ever gotten in a game so I am happy that I am doing ok in sports, but my coach said he was disappointed in me last week hopefully I was able to change his mind. and if your reading this leave a message, I am fairly lonely right now and I'd really love someone to talk to. I've seriously pushed all my friends out of my life and it's difficult trying to make new ones :/