I would like to think this is going to be a happy journal. I told myself a million times that I wasn't going to get high and he I am, stoned off my mind. I don't know what it is. Im not the same when I am sober. I just love this feeling so much. =] But if this is the only thing that makes me happy that is bad. All that means is that im shielding everyone out from my life. I really wish I had an alternative to this feeling.