Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Ok for the record I still love this girl and she means the world to me.But I can't just talk to her. We havent spoken in like a year until the other day.  Which we were kind of forced to talk to each other. It absoulutly kills me inside to know  that we are separated. I am listening to her favorite song and I do feel a little sensitive about it, but I will still listen because it was ment for me and It's about never leaving her. So I can't just not forget about her. I labeled this sad because it is sad. It's sad that I can't be a man about this and talk to her. It's strange that this one person can have this kind of effect on me. It's aweful. And even my closest of friends couldn't understand the pain I am going through with this, and I don't expect people to she dosn't even know how I feel and it seems like I have built up so much of my problems that they need to be realeased. You know? It's hard to write this as it is.=[  Makes me sad but at the end of the day it's only me. Just someone who can't get over there problem because of one thing that is holding me back. She is like everything to me and I saw her today she just turn her head away like I wasn't even there, go figure I am not even there.