I saw her a record amount today because I was called up to the office today and I guess she was to I guess I was nominated to class represenative I didn't take it because I knew she wanted to, We didn't talk at all, We just glanced at each other often, We both get the point. It's just now more than ever we realized the mistakes we have made. I mean but does she come talk to me? or do I go talk to her? I don't know what she wants. It seems like she wants to talk to me but she dosn't know what to say, I can't blame her because niether can I, A lot of things are running through my head at that point. I try to get a visual representation of what would happen if I did say something, but I keep getting the feeling that she will turn me down. I never get all frozen when I talk to a girl but I seem to when I am around her. I get the chills and it's intimidating. Im not scared of her, but I am scared of her reaction. You never know what your going to get from her. I should drive to her house to tell her how I feel but I keep putting it behind me. Her parents still like me It's not like I am scared to go over there I just don't know what to say when I am over there, I am thinking to fast when I am around her I might say the wrong thing. Something tells me thats it's over but I won't accept that. I have been in and out of relationships with her and I just thought that ok, this is another fight we will get over it, and we will go back to our healthy relationship. I was wrong. When I saw her with another guy it hit me so hard, I never saw that comming. I still have her bear that she gave me for Valentine's Day, It makes me smile. I remember that day like it was happening to me right now. I feel so special when I think of it. No girl could look more beautiful than she did that one day. I can't think of it because it makes me cry so I try not to talk about it. If you read this far thank you because It means a lot to me when people care. So thank you very much! =]