Torn

my heart is torn in so many pieces that i can't fix it anymore.......my mind is disturbed so deeply by my nightly nightmares that now i'm not sure which is reality.  blood covers my windows and bodies are paving the streets, but i'm also seeing just a normal day with it.  reality is becoming worse than my nightmares, because in my nightmares, i do end it all.  but sadly, i still wake back up.