ok i fucking know now that i am not to be loved by anyone. i lost another person that i love today. it fucking hurts. but i will be strong and not let it get to me. it will be hard but i will get ovet it. i hope i will. i feel so lonly. i have nobody. i should not say that. i have like 5 people that still do love me. those are my true friends. that is all i have. i am going to miss all th people i have lost so much.