Tired
08/24/11
I am just tired of the way my life is now. I am trying to make it better, but right now it seems to be all for nothing. I am starting to fall back into my negative thinking patterns. I am starting to blame myself for things that are out of my control again. I am also going back to only thinking about the negative aspects of my life.
How am I going to fix this? Is my life going to improve? Will I ever get out of my parent's house? Will I ever make enough money to survive? Too many questions are up in the air for me now. I feel like I just need to shut down and go back to working and ignoring all girls and dreams of moving out. This may keep me from going crazy for a while, but it is risky because it may backfire from me bottling up my emotions too much. That may take me down a dark road I never want to go down again.
It seems to be the best option at this point though. I am having too many fantasies about getting a gf or moving out on my own. Then when they fail I get very depressed. I need to stop dreaming and focus on getting better and making money. Working is all I seem to be good at these days anyway.
I am just tired of the way my life is now. I am trying to make it better, but right now it seems to be all for nothing. I am starting to fall back into my negative thinking patterns. I am starting to blame myself for things that are out of my control again. I am also going back to only thinking about the negative aspects of my life.
How am I going to fix this? Is my life going to improve? Will I ever get out of my parent's house? Will I ever make enough money to survive? Too many questions are up in the air for me now. I feel like I just need to shut down and go back to working and ignoring all girls and dreams of moving out. This may keep me from going crazy for a while, but it is risky because it may backfire from me bottling up my emotions too much. That may take me down a dark road I never want to go down again.
It seems to be the best option at this point though. I am having too many fantasies about getting a gf or moving out on my own. Then when they fail I get very depressed. I need to stop dreaming and focus on getting better and making money. Working is all I seem to be good at these days anyway.
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