Tired
08/24/11
I am just tired of the way my life is now. I am trying to make it better, but right now it seems to be all for nothing. I am starting to fall back into my negative thinking patterns. I am starting to blame myself for things that are out of my control again. I am also going back to only thinking about the negative aspects of my life.
How am I going to fix this? Is my life going to improve? Will I ever get out of my parent's house? Will I ever make enough money to survive? Too many questions are up in the air for me now. I feel like I just need to shut down and go back to working and ignoring all girls and dreams of moving out. This may keep me from going crazy for a while, but it is risky because it may backfire from me bottling up my emotions too much. That may take me down a dark road I never want to go down again.
It seems to be the best option at this point though. I am having too many fantasies about getting a gf or moving out on my own. Then when they fail I get very depressed. I need to stop dreaming and focus on getting better and making money. Working is all I seem to be good at these days anyway.
I am just tired of the way my life is now. I am trying to make it better, but right now it seems to be all for nothing. I am starting to fall back into my negative thinking patterns. I am starting to blame myself for things that are out of my control again. I am also going back to only thinking about the negative aspects of my life.
How am I going to fix this? Is my life going to improve? Will I ever get out of my parent's house? Will I ever make enough money to survive? Too many questions are up in the air for me now. I feel like I just need to shut down and go back to working and ignoring all girls and dreams of moving out. This may keep me from going crazy for a while, but it is risky because it may backfire from me bottling up my emotions too much. That may take me down a dark road I never want to go down again.
It seems to be the best option at this point though. I am having too many fantasies about getting a gf or moving out on my own. Then when they fail I get very depressed. I need to stop dreaming and focus on getting better and making money. Working is all I seem to be good at these days anyway.
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Everything is going to be fine as long as you keep in the right mind set. You are a very strong person. You\'ve defied the odds and lost all this weight. You\'ve accomplished something that not many people are strong enough to do. It takes extreme will and want. You can accomplish anything. Life is going to throw many bumps and mountains your way, but you just have to take a deep breath and run across it. Sure you will be tired at the end, but you\'ve succeeded. You\'ve helped me so much and I want you to know you are a great person and can handle anything life throws at you. I wish you the best of luck!
you need to stay positive through anything that happens.. sometimes things happen that you can\'t help.. don;t give up on what you want.. just if you have a goal to move out and get a gf, then make that your inspiration to get everything else done.. you need to stay strong.. you can help yourself more than anyone else can