As I have written in previous journal entries, the path that I am on is learning how to become me, who I have always been meant to be.  I LIKE TO IMAGINE A SCENE AT THE GATES OF HEAVEN WHERE A PERSON WANTING TO GET IN IS ASKED "WHY DIDN'T YOU BECOME YOU?" THE OLD TESTAMENT TALKS ABOUT GETTING TO AN EXPECTED END.  tHAT IS BECOMING WHOM YOU WERE MEANT TO BE.I FOUND A BAND FROM ENGLAND CALLED MARILLION.  ON THEIR MARBLES ALBUM IS A SONG CALLED NEVERLAND HERE ARE SOME OF THE LYRICS:When the darkness takes me overFace down, emptier than zeroInvisible you come to me ..quietly Stay beside meWhisper to me "Here I am"And the loneliness fades   Some people think I'm somethin'Well you gave me that, I knowBut I always feel like nothingWhen I'm in the dark alone  You provide the soul, the spark that drives me onMakes me something more than flesh and bone  At times like theseAny fool can seeAny fool can seeYour love inside me  All these yearsTruth In front of my eyesWhile I deniedWhat my heart knows was right  At times like theseAny fool can seeAny fool can seeYour love inside me  I want to be someoneI want to be someoneI want to be someoneWho someone would want to beSomeone would want to be…  Any foolAny fool can seeAny fool can seeYour loveInside me  Neverland by Marillion on the Marbles album (hear it in YouTube and on their MySpace page)mY HOPE IS THAT SOMEONE WILL FIND THE STRENGTH AND ENCOURAGEMENT THAT I HAVE FOUND.-G