Missing You
Hi Sweetheart. Today is sunday and I woke up thinking about how much I miss you.
One of those days I didn't want to get out of bed but mara had to be let out and fed. Took her for a long walk today but she still seems restless and walks around sniffing things. I can feel that she misses you too and is trying to sense your presence. I hope you're safe and happy wherever you may be, but I miss you walking around in your pajamas and having you eat breakfast with me. I miss your smile in the morning and don't know how I'll go on without you.
Tomorrow will be 4 weeks since you left us and I don't want you to be gone but I can't undo it and although I have more moments when I can function because I have to, it still feels like I'm drowning in grief most of the time. You used to tell me how strong I was but I was only strong for you and with you. You gave my life meaning. Without you I feel like an empty shell and don't want to be anywhere because wherever I was you were with me. Now I sit here typing and I let the tears flow because I couldn't sop them if I wanted to.
Your urn is still at the funeral home. We're planning on burying you next to your mom as you wanted but that's another day I'm dreading. It will be the first week in April and I hope I can be strong for the ceremony but I'm not making any promises.
I hope you know I love you with all my heart and miss you more than I can say.
Love you always,
Mike
One of those days I didn't want to get out of bed but mara had to be let out and fed. Took her for a long walk today but she still seems restless and walks around sniffing things. I can feel that she misses you too and is trying to sense your presence. I hope you're safe and happy wherever you may be, but I miss you walking around in your pajamas and having you eat breakfast with me. I miss your smile in the morning and don't know how I'll go on without you.
Tomorrow will be 4 weeks since you left us and I don't want you to be gone but I can't undo it and although I have more moments when I can function because I have to, it still feels like I'm drowning in grief most of the time. You used to tell me how strong I was but I was only strong for you and with you. You gave my life meaning. Without you I feel like an empty shell and don't want to be anywhere because wherever I was you were with me. Now I sit here typing and I let the tears flow because I couldn't sop them if I wanted to.
Your urn is still at the funeral home. We're planning on burying you next to your mom as you wanted but that's another day I'm dreading. It will be the first week in April and I hope I can be strong for the ceremony but I'm not making any promises.
I hope you know I love you with all my heart and miss you more than I can say.
Love you always,
Mike
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