things are not very well with me right now. school started today and i was unable to attend because i was to sick. this is going to be a tough quarter and i have quite a few tough corses to get through. my oldest daughter has taken the notion that whenever she is angery she can lash out with as much violence as she wants to, she gets this idea from her father who is of the same. i have a daughter in trouble with the law and one headed that way with shoplifting. i have my parents sending me threatening emails screeming that i am a bad mom and that i don't deserve to have my kids because i dare to allow the law to pronounce their judgment on the children instead of helping them lie their way out. i have gotten to the point of not being able to eat or sleep. i have several panic attacts a day. don't know how much longer i will be able to take the unending pressure.