Better

I'm better today. I risked the sarcastic secretary's wrath and called in sick. I imagine they'll survive. I went to grief group last night and cried for two solid hours. I have two friends who go and the whole group is rapidly becoming my support system. I need to think through decisions about work. I hate to leave the school and especially the kids, in the lurch but on the other hand I don't want to develop any more resentments or get (if possible) tireder. I really appreciate all who commented. I am not in a public school. We do not have a union. They feel the answers to all my problems are ask for more faith and trust God. Actually, I do have faith and trust God, believing that I'll see my darling again and that he is well and happy now, but I miss him like crazy. That's the problem. I guess they don't get that. It is good to have friends here on DS that actually "get it." I am just going to ask God for the courage to do the next right thing and keep going. That will be my demonstration of trust. I honestly don't think calling in two daysin two years is excessive. I know why they're mad. I have a boatload of students.