Wow, this has been a long couple of weeks. I had to go back to the hospital that traumatized me years ago. I had my surgery and recovering pretty well physically but emotionally I am having problems. Everything I would look at and be peaceful does not any more Home seems familiar as if I know its my home but Its just like a place. My food has no flavor and I muddle through pretending that I feel the same way most of the time. I have told people though. My counselor will be back next week. I had the best surgeon. I was a little surprised when I woke up from surgery that I would be in terrible pain because no muscle was suppose to be taken out. When they went in they found more knots and that they had adhered to muscle. Someone accidentally gave me double dose of dilate when it was on constant drip plus I could dose myself when ever I wanted. I had to talk to the nurses about my P.T.S.D medicine and they did not believe me. I am glad to be home after 6 days of trauma. Here's to healing and feeling at peace again.