Well I made it. I had the worst day yesterday playing mind games with myself about my entitlement to relax and play video poker. I had a pocket full of money and all day to myself. I kept myself busy buying paint, visiting my daughter, and a friend, going to the grocery store and planning a nice meal for my family. I am on day 7 again but this time I am counting 16 days with one slip up. For me this feels like a miracle because I would have gone at least 6 or 7 times at $200 to $300 a pop by now if I was still gambling. I truely believe this disease does have to be conquered one day at a time. I feel very fortunate to have found this site in my deserate search for help. I think that perhaps attending a GA meeting or therapy to get at the root of my addictive behavior will need to be my next step.