Hi everyone! I was at a cottage for the past week thats why  I haven't written. So much happened even before that. My husbands cousin killed himself a couple weeks ago. It was so unexpected and so sad. He was such a lively outgoing person always the life of the party. He was supposed to come and stay with us soon too. So we had to go to a funeral the same day we left for our trip. Seeing everyones pain and anguish put all my problems in perspective. Things could always be worse. You can never judge a person until you walk in their shoes. But on the brighter side we had such a good vacation. It was just what we needed to get away from everything. I did really good not thinking about babies and getting pregnant for a week. Now that we are home its all hitting me again. I will download some pictures to show you all. Love and hugs.