Today is Monday....I held the Memorial Service for my Mom on Saturday.  We had lots of people show up and share their stories about Mom.  There was quite a bit of family (and family drama starting Friday night when I got home), but all in all...it went very well.  I had little moments of teary-eyed-ness, but I broke down right at the end when I gave in and opened the box she is in.  I shouldn't have done that.  My ex husband and his wife and my daughter brought her with them.  They put her in a basket that had flowers, a cross, and a table runner, the whole thing was absolutely beautiful!!!!.  The flowers, I have laid out to be dried and kept.  The cross Jamie bought for me and Mom, so it is mine to keep.  The table runner belonged to Jamie's mother.  She passed away 16 years ago from cancer.  Jamie's family always put this table runner on the table at Thanksgiving.  It means so very much to me that she would give it to me.I was so sick yesterday.  I vomitted all day long.  I took a nap and it didn't really make me feel any better.  I think my body is just tired.  I am done with all that needs to be done for mom.  I have no husband any more, just me and the girls and Katie has moved, so it really is just Hunter and me (and James).  I have my job, but nothing any more that is so pressing.  My stbx keeps emailing me asking how Saturday went...if it was so important to him, he should have gone!  I took Hunter shopping yesterday afternoon and I bought a dress for me.  She said I will be the most beautiful mommy in the world if I bought that dress, so I did!  :>)  She is my biggest fan!!!I have so much on my brain, so much to put to words, but it is still all scrambled.  My phone decided to quit this weekend, wonderful!!  :>(  I couldn't call a friend who was out of town and not feeling well and another friend who emailed and asked if we could talk.  I felt so bad for him!!  My darned phone didn't work though!!  Maybe he'll let me call him tonight, if he still needs to talk.  Well, I better get some work done.  I will write more down as my mind clears.  Have a very happy day to all!!!