O.K., I have to vent!!!  I was on my way to lunch and was on my cell (with a very handsome man by the way) and while I was at the red light my stbx was across the street at the light at the same time.  When we passed each other he waved and I did not.  I sped up to pass him quickly.  Well, he didn't like that so he called me to see what it was that he did to piss me off today.  I told him he didn't do anything TODAY.  He apparently wasn't in a joking mood.  We got into it over the phone and I eventually ended up at the restaraunt (I was meeting a girlfriend of mine for lunch) and told him I had to go because my lunch date was waiting for me.  He wanted to know who the guy was.  Well, it wasn't a guy, but I didn't tell him, I just hung up.  I called him after my lunch date and told him I needed to say some things to him.  I told him I was not going to apologize for my behavior nor was I going to make excuses.  I just offered an explanation to him.  I told him in the past two months my life has been turned upside down.  I have lost my husband, my life, my oldest daughter has moved away, and my mother has passed away.  I do not have my best friend any more to help me thru this and he was just going to have to accept the fact that I am hurting and when he acts like a total jacka**, I tend to get a little pissy at him, he just has to deal with it!  I told him how crappy I think it is that his mother hasn't even called me to offer any condolences to me.  I was married to him for 7 years, I was not just some girl he was screwing around with.  She set us up to begin with and now she can't even call me when my mother passes away.  He said that was between her and me and I replied, I don't have a damn thing to say to that woman.  After that phone call I walk into the newspaper to place my mothers obituary and the lady proceeds to tell me that they cannot accept it because it didn't come from the Funeral Home.....WTF????!!!!!!  What else does God have in store for me today?  I am trying to stay positive and focused, it is just really hard today!!!  On the plus side of life I have a girls night out planned for Thursday.  Girls and margaritas, I may not make it to work on Friday, I will let you know!!!  Thanks for listening!!!!!!Hugs to all!!!