Happy Saturday!!  I am so exhausted today!  I was on a phone call last night until after midnight.  GREAT phone call!    Gotta feel bad for my friend though, there is a two hour time difference, I am two hours behind!  Sorry to my dear friend!  I do appreciate the conversation though.  I had fun and it meant a lot to me.  Well, after that I went to sleep and was woken up at 4:00 a.m. and had to call the paramedics to come get my mom and I spent most of the day at the hospital.  She is home now and doing o.k., for which I am extremly grateful!!  But, as I say, I am exhausted.  She is napping right now, which is the only reason I am on here posting.

I saw my stbx last night too.  Which is why I called my friend.  My stbx made me feel very uncomfortable.  I am over it now though, thanks to my friend.  But I just get tired of the games he plays.  I am really sick of hearing how I am still his best friend and he misses me every day and every night.  He thinks of me all the time.  Then comes....when are you going to get all of your junk out of here?  I can't fit anything else in the garage right now.  SO WHAT!!!!  He is the one who kicked me out and changed the locks.  What is it with people wanting everything both ways?  I have been very kind and civil with him, I have listened to him and I have been there for him since he told me he wanted out of our marriage.  I don't want him to be a jerk to me, I just want him to not tell me how much he loves me and how much he misses me and how much he desires me.  Just leave me alone.  I told him I am planning on a trip soon and I am also planning on moving withing the next year or two (depends on my mom).  He wants to know where I am going and who I am going with or meeting there...I told him it is no longer his business.  I tell him where I am going and he comes back with "You don't know anyone there!"  AAAGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!    He says he cannot believe how happy I am without him.  What does he want?  Does he want me to be miserable for eternity?  He is not the only man out there who thinks I am something special!  

 O.K., I am done complaining about my stbx.  Things are still rosey over here in my world.  Mom is still napping, kids are healthy and happy, it is sunny outside, and I have a smile on my face.  I have been truly blessed in life and I thank God every day.  I have been thru a lot and have grown a lot and most definetly learned a lot!  There is so much in life to do and to learn and experience, I am just so excited!!!!  I am planning a trip a trip for October and I am really, really looking forward to it!  A new adventure, very exciting!