Today was a good day. My husband and I went out for dinner tonight. I was absolutely starving. I munched on a litlle popcorn then had dinner. I had this very lean tender pot roast with veggies and mashed potatoes. How wonderful I had two bites of pot roast, 2 piece of carrots and 2 forkful of mashed potatoes and i was so full i could hardly move. My head still doesn't match my stomach just yet, but I love being full so fast. I sometimes feel like I am missing out on something fun when I see everyone filling up with food. They comment "how can you be full already you ate nothing" and I just say "well to me I ate well". I do sometimes feel like I am missing out on some kind of american ritual, but I 've come to realize I like fitting in my "thin clothes" much more than shoveling in food at a restaurant. Just like to verbalize my feelings sometimes it helps me to understand them better when I verbalize them. So all you people who now eat like birds be proud of yourselves we aren't missing out on anything except for a sore back, feet and legs. Have a great weekend all!NAL
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Sometimes, I think I ate this kick ass meal, and people are around me telling me I hardly eat. UGH. WE cant win! I bought my 1st pair of size 10\'s!!!!! I cant fit into them at this time, but I have them! (got to love kohl\'s 80% off rack!) Enjoy the playoffs.... : )
I love kohl\'s too. I got some tops there. I still by 1x sometimes because I like my tops loose. I guess it was 10 years of buying fat clothes that way. I have bought some beautiful dress clothes for work this year and I have never felt better wearing them. I also have a small jewlery business I am getting off the ground and it adds a special extra something to look great when you sell jewelery. I noticed at my job as a medical secretary that some nurses that used to just say hello to me are now becoming much more social and adding me as one of their friends. Instead of me thinking they were predjudiced about fat people maybe just maybe it is because I have opened up and become more confident and smiley. I have to say I do feel alot better about myself at work. We have a woman administrator who thinks she is all that because she wears a size 4. Well first her face is as hard as shoeleather and second of all she made a comment to me one day about being in too good of clothes for work. Isn\'t that a kicker! I am not and will never be a size 4, but it felt good to have her say that even if it had jealous connotations meant. I want to keep going and lose moer weight. Just getta get back on the wagon. I am converting back to not eating good enough food. I need my protein drinks again, which I am having one right now. I vow to never be fat again. I hate the life that goes along with it. I will never stop trying, but as the months go by it gets harder not easier because you feel better and can tolerate a lot more food. My sugar toleration has gone way up and that is a bad thing for me. SOmetimes I wonder after a few years if they can do a revision and make the pouch real small again.
Nal