I have asked him to leave. He knows I don't have money to leave and he has resources. I just need a peaceful place to sleep and he knows I am stuck. I sleep in the other room, there is little to no speaking, which is fine because he just lies. Its just anxiety filled. I try not to be home, work as much as possible, but I need to sleep. If you are selfish enough to be a cheating asshole, just go. I told him I won't chase you, hang on, nothing. Let me go. He leads two lives. The one he wants his family to think he has, and the twisted one he sneaks around doing. And who are these women?! Wtf is your problem, it only takes a click on the internet to see he is legally married for long time, why are you getting involved ? I know its his fault, but I still don't get the mentality of the ow. Today I am going to a family friend's wedding. Alone. Probably say he is sick, because I really don't want the conversation about my shitty marriage at a new marriage.  Sometimes timing is ironic,huh?! God give me strength ........