Haven't felt this way before. Been low but had hope. Its as though I am wading through stages, and now its sadness for what could have been and wasted time. Uncertainty about the future. Hit to the self esteem. Wondering what's next. Positives- I know its his problem, I know not to try to fix him, I am stronger than before. Negatives - what now. Alone forever? Have I become mean and bitter? I have something inside. Been praying about it and looking for signs. Trying to keep my head up and not look back. He's behind me for a reason.