Happy New Year!  I spent last night alone.  It was good.  I had a cleansing experience last night.  I was washing away a lot of pain.  I told a lot of people (who were not around) that I hated them for hurting me or leaving me vulnerable.  It felt good to release the truth.  It was painful but it helped.I don't normally practice New Year's resolutions but  I am today.  I want to stop feeling sorry for myself.  I want to stop acting a victim.  I want to think and be positive.  That doesn't mean I won't be disappointed.  Disappointments can happen.  How I deal with them is most important.  I need to pay more attention to how my body feels.I must be honest with myself.  I must respect myself.  I want to stop being angry at the world.  I must love myself.I must practice at being here - in the now.  Stop looking back.  - dwelling on the past.  I have to learn from the past and my mistakes.  I want to pray more and trust that God will lead me in the correct path.I wish everyone a beautiful New Year.  Grasshopper