well, i have my own personal journal, but i thought i give this a shot.  last week i ran into this dude that said we were best friends some time ago.  he lied to me and i let him take advantage of me.  it took me back to a "familiar place."  it was horrible -- the experience with him.  but anyway like i said i ran into him last week.  i turned around and walked away.  that night i thought about what had happened.  i thought i ran away from him.  no i did not.  i walked away from him.  he doesn't control me anymore.  it was freedom.  i've been wanting to kill him.  i'm thankful.  i found the strength to ignore him.  i wasted three years of my life with him.   i experienced the same freedom standing up to my moms a few days before.  i think that is where this strength came from.  i'll talk about that situation later.   we have to gain control of our own world.  someone in our group said that it's God who places people in our path and it is up to us to be selective/to discriminate against those who have their own self agenda.  be careful of those wolves dressed in sheep's clothing (something like that, lol).  i wish all of us strength.