i'm always feeling bad.  i try to lift my spirits but it's really difficult.  i don't feel like i can see a flicker of light at the end of my tunnel.  i feel like i have a disease.  it's called sadness.  i guess it's depression.  how do i climb out of it?  how do i change my life around?  my emotions are on a roller coaster right now.  i don't know what sets it off all the time.  i feel better here in this site.  i guess i feel safe and not judged, but i cannot live in here.  ahhh!