Well i went on my first night out in ages on Saturday, it was for a friends hen night and there were  13 of us in total hitting the town. I enjoyed the first half of the night but then disaster struck and I had a panic attack :( I'd left my diazepam at home so just had to work through it, thankfully one of the other girls who suffers with depression herself noticed the signs and took me outside to calm me down. She was so nice to me, I only met her that night but she offered me her phone number and said if I ever need to talk no matter what time day or night she'd be there for me. It was such a nice thing for any person to do that it made me cry.I managed to get through the rest of the night but after that I stopped drinking to make sure things didn't get worse.The bus journey of an hour home was awkward as the 'hen' and her future sister in law had words and the tension was felt by all. I just sat back and went to sleep so as not to get involved.Not sure if I'm looking forward to the two weddings I've got coming up now, what if I have panic attacks there too???