I feel so sick today. I was late for school because I was to busy throwing up. I fly to America on Saturday morning and I'm nowhere near ready. I don't really know how I'm feeling right now. I found out I was pregnant just a few days ago and I'm scared. I'm worried about having to stop medication. How will I cope without it? What would it do to baby if I carried on taking it?Babies dad is ill, he hasn't been in contact. I'm hoping it's because he's ill and not because he doesn't want to know. I don't want my baby to not know his/her dad.  I'm hoping my time away helps me re-evaluate things. I'm looking forward to seeing my friend who has lived out there for 4 years, I'm looking forward to my sons face when he sees all the disney characters....... I'm not looking forward to the flight. I have morning sickness that lasts all day and a so with ASD and ADHD that will not sit still for 9 hours. To all my friends I'm sorry I haven't been about much. My life has been so busy just now that I've not had much time to log on.