I was rudely awoken at some random time this morning by one of the mums from my sons school.  Sorry for calling so early she says. Well if you're sorry why did you do it? She didn't even want anything important just to ask something about Children in need.Today has been good for me for once. I've chatted with friends, been the cemetery and got a really cold bum sitting on the floor. I got lots of things off my chest about the past few weeks and it was good just to be able to say it without worrying about what peoples opinions of me would be. Even if he could answer, I know Chris would never have judged me on anything I did.Sometimes I think I worry too much. In general I don't care what others opinions of me are, but to those I like I worry about upsetting t hem especially when I'm having mood swings.