Well I've been away for a while and tried to make myself better. It didn't really work. I've spent the past few weeks trying to cover things up but it doesn't work....without my cpn and one friend who understands a bit but allows me to be me, I don't think I'd have coped I came  close to the edge, but I feel I'm coming back now, I've allowed myself to go back to uni even though I am still a bit hypomanic, I just feel everyone's against me, the system is against me, the world is against me