Well what can I say? This is my first go at doing anything like this and I'm scared that if I start to write things down then it will just keep coming and I wont know when to stop. Anyway, here goes. Today I'm still feeling really ill, I have glandular fever and have only managed to get out of bed for about an hour all day. I just want to curl back up and sleep, only the sleep I get isn't real sleep, it's that awful sleep that comes with a fever. Also seen my CPN today and he suggested it's time to go back to taking anti depressants, I've thought about it for a while now, but he says it's time to stop thinking and start doing things. The only good thing that's come out of today is that at least I've stopped crying