I've been writing in my journal obsesively. I carry it everywhere with me now. Last night was my balllll it was alright, lots of laughing and dancing. Apart from that everything else is the same really. I have booked my flights to England. Its good to have a date now, January the 8th I start a new life. And I have two nights in singapore on the way by myself! I can't wait. I love singapore city at night, all the lights and its so hot you can walk around with so much comfort. Singapore is a beautiful place. I am in debt again to my mother but at least its not 3000 thsi time and I should pay it off by 10 weeks or something. I like being in debt because I hand all of my pay to her except for money I need for petrol and stuff and it doesnt leave me any money to waste on binging/purging. I am excited about England, but scared. No one knows how scared. Oh, and my doctor has made an appointment for me witht he mental health people at the hospital.l I'm scared abotu that too  but iunno, shewouldnt give me anti depresants cos she thought I would just take them all at once. I don't think I would have. Today I am cleaning and it feels really good. Thats another thing thats taken over, I seem to have to clean everything and realllly thourohly. oh well.