I ended up getting totally stoned, it was fun although I shouldn't have drove home. I have started a new goal to loose weight. Its my ball coming up on August 1st and I have really let myself go. I am going to bike to school most days even though it is winter! Um and swim sometimes before school, I'll still be working (I just won't eat at work) the food is really fattening. I'll also do some running and gymnastics of course. On days I'm not doing anything I will do some excersizes in my room, like I did tonight. I took some pictures of my body and cried, but I've just done 100 situps so I feel a bit better. I'm really excited about swimming, I love the water. I've only got 180 dollars left to pay mom for my laptop!!! out of like 3500!!! Finally I get my wages to myself soon. When I have lost a bit of weight I will go ball dress shopping as a treat because I have my school ball coming up in August. I've planned until the end of August what excersize I will do each day, for example, tomorow is to go for a run I finish school at 12.30 tomorow. Then wednesday I have gymnastics and I will bike to school. Oh and I have to see Rick on wednesday too, I am nervous as always. I do have a question though, I have also planned how many calories I'll have each day. For tomorow it is 500 and wednesday too. Then on thursday its 1000 cos Im working. Friday is 750 and saturday and sunday 500...is that enough? I am taking vitiman pills already each day... I have gone times without eating anything and all that happened was I binged after a while, I don't want to do that this time. Some advice on my limits would be appreciated please.