Im going to masterton tomorow to see Amy and Hana and hopefully get stoned again. I'm sick of Mahala's mind for a bit, and Rick encouraged me to do it..well his words were "If I had one hand of glue and one hand of pot then I know what  I would recomend for you" then he was saying how I can discover myself this way..it was kinda fucked up but I do get to think about things better wen you take away my feelings for a bit. Woah I hope we get stoned. I worked today and fell over and was lying there on the kitchen floor and no one was there to help me stand up so I just cried for a bit. this leg is really gettting to me, its real swallen and sore if it twists even slightly. I tried running today, gentle running and I just fell on my face cos my leg gave way. and Im limping and all these idiots are gawking at me thinking im the idiot but w.e..Fuck I just wana get stoned. I want to escape, its not even an escape its just amazing. Its really unhealthy but I am constantly in my room, my family doesnt even communicate anymore. I dont care. I just wana be high.