I have had hardly any time to think lately! I worked thursday and had school, I then had school on friday and worked, I worked saturday and sunday 7-2 then came home and spent 6 hours on my geography, monday school and work and then today I had school then the last day of my self esteem group that finished at 6 then work rang me and called me in so I got home at 8.30..Its 10.20 and Ive just finished more geography and tried to do calculus. I ended up getting really frustrated, it felt like the same song I was hearing was on repeat and I was punching the ground and so I closed my eyes and thought no Mahala you can't cry over calculus just put it away and get some sleep. So I am writing this before I sleep. In pe today I did 30 press ups and one of the guys said he was surprised I could do 3..they dontknow I do gymnastics..I was glad that I had surprised them. Then I was mucking around practising my handstand walking and I collapsed onto my face cos my arms were so wobbly hahaha it was hilarious. It was sad to end my self esteem group today, It was 11 weeks long and I was just getting to kow the 8 other girls. We wrote our names on a piece of paper and then handed them around in a circle each writing stuff about that person, it was a warm fuzzy activity..I couldnt put my sheet of paper down, I think I have read it 10 times, the things they said just filled me up inside. Im gunna miss my tuesday nights with that group but next tuesday Im gunna see my friends that I did two weeks back and going to get stoned again. Tommorow I see Rick, I wana tell him that I am good as to go things by myself now, I think I will but I am still unsure. I know I will be fine. A lot of things have happened I mean negative things but I dont want to dwel on them I am over it. So I am going to sleep now and I will wake up tomorow and tell my calculus teachher that I need an extention and I will enjoy my day off cos I am back to work on thursday friday saturday and sunday. Oh! And I have gymnastics tomororow! and tonight at 12am is payday!