So Rick thinks we are getting nowhere anymore. I know hes right but no one takes in intrest in me the way he does. I go cos hes someone who listens to the craziest of craziest things I have to say. Nothing is getting better at all. Nothing is going right. I don't know how to make it right, I don't know what to do. I dont know what to write anymore to make this all go away. I want to be invisible.