I just want to be sick. I've waited too long though, I've just been sitting here like an obese whale. I gave bloodd yesterday and the lady askedme how much I weigh and I told her like I didn't have a problem at all and she said "oh, I didn't think you were even over 50kg"I was like thinking whatever, get some glasses. I feel like I am going to emotionally collapse soon, I have been feeling up now for about 3 weeks. And when I had that glue for about three days I sunk..I'm just trying to keep my mind busy. I'm always thinking, okay what can I do after I have done this. I don't feel like I've gotten thinner, I just totally binged out and ugh, don't want to even think about it. I see Rick in a few hours. I have a good mind to cancel the appointment. If only I could without feeling bad. I thought that when I had glue that I would snap back into wanting it and my head screaming at me again. I did for like 3 days. but now its just back to emptyness, I have cast it aside though. I needa do school work now..