I feel like shit. I am alone. There is nobody here to look after me for once and why? because I fucking withdrew from everyone. no ones ever gunna want me anyway. I'll never be thin enough. my skin will never be pure. and my mind has been abused over and over. I don't beleive a word Rick says or anyone that thinks I can be healed. I was so high up today. I had pains from laughing so hard! and tears in my eyes from happiness..now I am just low and there is no one to cradle it away.