so what if I pull away from everyone? what does it fuckin matter. everyone is just doing it back to me. Ican do whatever the fuck I want. I want to chop off my hand. I want Satan to come and gobble me up right now right here in this room where nothing ever leaves me alone. no one will see us. Come and get me. Just you wait. he will. and I will be carried away skin burning finally pain I can live with but not this type. nAH. so fucking come get me already! so sick of tyhis life. pulling away because I can. something I cN DO. I need something to do. Imma cut tonight. no glue for 12 days. at least I can cut. and I will and maybe I will be taken away then. just maybe. I hope. I don't want to be here. I am pissing my pants at this joke of a world. its so funny, people say they are there for you but they are the first to leave, well fuck you all. When im in hell with the only one who does care then Imma burn all you fuckers eyes out. Just you wait. I'll be laughing then too.