Day One

Its 8.25..I went for a run an hour ago..I collapsed on the pavement after about half an hour..I totally hate myself for it. For it all. My fitness has gone to nil since I did this glue. I totally am hating myself right now. I keep trying to remeber laws of attraction Mahala. I am the master o fmy thoughts but once again this thing plauges over me and suffocates me literally. I cant even breathe now, my chest is tighting and rising and falling way to fast. Cant think. STOP IT.