I brought bandages today. The lady at the supermarket was giving me looks but I didn;t care. I've left them in my car though and I really needa cut. ITs like it overwhelms me. Todayhas gone from good to bead to good and now back to bad. I don't want to go into too much detail in entries anymore because I don't know if andyone who I know reads this. 9 more poems to go then I am done wihth writing poetry. I will write to you tomorow Em since I am failing school anyway. man I wana cut, I needa cut. I needa feel it all back again. I never knew things could change so sudenly. my mood swings have been horrible. up down up down. I'm so low right now.
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I also tried to feel better cuttting.I know it in the short run it relieves some pain,something you can control when your feeling out of control.But the next day,I saw the damage and it just made things worse.I have not cut for awhile now even though my life is out of control.But I\'m not giving up and I WILL control this.I found out its not the answer even though I\'m still searching for one.Please take care of yourself.
How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live. Henry David Thoreau