Well so much has happened. My Dad completley went mad at me because aparantly I deleted his stuff off the computer when I didn't touch it. He was calling me horrible stuff and screaming how pathetic and ugly my Mom is. He was kicking my cat and threw it out the door. I went to my Room and he accused me of sulking, when I just didnt see the point of listening to his crap and trying not to cry infront of my Mom. He was kicking the computer and bashind the screen. I never seen him so angry. My heart was beating so fast. I was trying to cry silently because he would come in my room it was so hard. as a result I didnt go on the computer for three days because I was mad at him. yesterday he started talking to me and didnt even appoligise. the bastard.yesterday I got a call from the rest home where I did my work experience and was asked if I still wanted a job because there was one on offer. I said yeah and she asked meto go in at 9.30 today. so I did and god I was a wreck. I never shaken so much in mylife. She recognised me from when I did my work experience and said wow your report is good and everything was good and she said that she was gunna ring my referee soon and let me know this afternoon. I raced round my referees house and warned her she was gunna get a call :P my referee said shes already rang so I am now waiting for that call. I am so nervous. I worked out that if I get the job I'll be getting $300 a week. wow. but its 27 hours a week. I hope I'll manage. well I know I will but I wonder about my body. I am so nervous. completley nervous. I'll be so hurt if I dont get the job. Im feelingso high that its gunn abe dangerous if I am forced to go so low so quickly. especially because my referee said that she sounded really keen to have me on the phone and thew interview wasnt really an interveiw it was just a chat about her daughter being a vet. she photocopied my first aid certificate and said that she was glad I had my first aid. she wowed at my report which weas near to perfect. and she loved the fact that I was working towards police college. Im so nervous. She told me all the hours and what I'd be doing. and she talked in that tense as if I already had the job. and its good because I still have wednesdays to do gymnastics! im so excited. this job means that im not just standing in a stupid supermarket. I 've always wanted this job at the rest home and Ive had my application there for abut  a year now. so to suddenly get a call out of the blue was a shock. I really really really hope I get this job. It feels as if my whole life depends on it because I dont think I could handle another rejection. Oh my gosh im hoping so much. what if she doesnt ring today? she said she would this afternoon. please please someone up there give me this job.