so tonight I have gymnastics..I'm so nervous because I haven't done gymnastics since I was 10..I'm still, if not more flexible as I was before and have more strength from canoe polo..The class I signed up for is one for my age (I think) who are ex competitors and wana get back into it..should be fun..it's more relaxed and once a week and today is that day..:S I've had trouble finding shorts that don't come down when I do handstands and flips and reveal the world my scared thighs..I found some but they arn't really that suitable. I've also had to wear a t-shirt because of the scars on my back and shoulders I'd wear a leotard if I could but I don't have one and I don't think I have to wear one for this class..it's not as hard out. I'm so freaking nervous. Scared I'll pop a joint or pull my calf even more. Haha oh well. I guess I just got to smile.I saw Vicky!! She got about an arms length away from me..she was holding the dorr I needed to walk through and when she saw me she stopped holding the dorr and ran and sat down somewhere else and pretended to be on her phone..(she NEVER uses her phone..) sigh.Today has been pretty weird..I woke up to find no one home and since we had not breakfast suitable foods ( I was hungry) I went to the supermarket (at about 7am) and brought some bagels and sat in my car at the parking lot it was absolutley pouring with rain and the windows were all streaking with raindrops and It was pounding on the windscreen and I was all dry and warm inside my car..the sound of it hitting the roof was so relaxing. I sat there for what seemed like ages, then I drove to school and a teacher upset me and so I cried..I couldn't help it..it wasnt even much to do with what was happening in class..just everything building up and letting me know I needa let it out. I know that day is coming soon because my eyes water with any though of happiness. I didn't need to cry in the parking lot because it was as if the rain was crying for me. I hope it rains like that again soon. The fact that it was almost pitch black too..It was amazing.