Numb

The worst time is when I am sort of asleep and my brain is all -_- I know don't know what I think when I do it anymore. last ngiht I cut again and the night before that, the fact that I had an unhealed cut didn't seem to bother me anymore. I know I should try stop this getting into a cycle like It was but I feel so weak and tired. There's no one to talk to me or admire me so I don't know why I should look after ymself. I don't care about myself..all I know is that this whole huge dependant cycle is starting again. Secrets, lies and sleepless late nights. I can keep up with it all, I just wish I didn't have to.