I went to a friends birthday and I swear I ate fucking meat. I hate not being able to cook my own food not to see where it is or use my own knives..I felt so upset with myself. They were eating geletine lolies and marshmellows and stuff all night in the tent and I thought one might land on me. One of her friends didn't come into the tent..I think that might have something to do with me liking girls..maybe she thought I was gunna fucking rape her in her sleep. That kind of thing makes me angry, They just think they can crowd me in corners and yell at me threaten Vicky and more. Well it's not okay but thankfully I'll have my car to drive to and from school and I'll get a lunch pass so that I don't have to eat anything and can just drive away fromt hem all for a bit. My friend is leaving and it's not goingto be the same. Nearly had an accident today..My contact lenses are cutting into my eyes..I haven't had much sleep because I was wanting to puke all of last night but they would of smelt it whenI got back to the tent. I'm sure I ate meat. There was chicken there too and battery farmed eggs. I don't eat eggs now. I eat cheese and milk. Hardly milk. I dont like sourcream because that has geletine..Can'thave many cheese varieties because I'm luckky if I find a decent priced vegetarian cheese..I would prefer not to eat at all but I can't do that. I think I will when I move out and stuff. Thingswill be better then. THE BILL IS ON TONIGHT! Seriously I look forward tot his all week..